i played the song "How did you know" by gary v. while writing this possible ending of the story(the ONE that got away) after all, i was playing it while i wrote that blog entry of mine. Sounds cheesy though but i cant help it. By playing the said song, i am hoping that my emotions while writing that entry would come back. But it didn't, its now different.
Yes,he came back. he came back through a text message asking me how im doing. A friend of mine gave my number to him (thank you girl!!). And from then on, we communicated.
I asked him to go to our PASKUHAN(UST's christmas party). He didnt came. May be he is too drunk. Then he ask me to go to their ARRIBA Fest,,,i said no.
Although he came back, i am not quite sure what i am feeling about it. I was fooled so many times by guys that is the reason why i am doubtful of his feelings for me. I want to believe him, i really do but still my brain is telling not to give in again. may be he is plain trippin' and if i believe him, i might end up falling again and i might not stand again.
i am not afraid of love, i am afraid of its consequences for i know i will be hurt again. can you blame me if i hide under my mask?i blame my heart though,,
i dont want to fall but i dont want to be alone,,i really hope that he will be the ONE who will change my views regarding that matter,,i wish he will give the SIgn i asked,,if he will give it then i will know that he really is my ONE.
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