why o why?!

why o why cant i be free??be free to express myself?coz whenever i try to express my thoughts,, my mom is always there to disturb my flow of creative juices and my emotions as well..(thanks a lot)..why do they always do that??O mean when she ask questions and i try to answer them she will say that i am answering back,,nyahaha..wadalayp!!i hate it when that happens and mind you..it always happen to me..why me?? i'm trying my best to please her but still it's not enough im always bobo or stupid in her way of thinking. i hope she doesn't read this coz if she does im in BIG BIG TROUBLE again..

confusion??

confusion is the word for the day or maybe the word for the month,,im so confused,,why??because i think i have feelings for my bestfreind and i still have a boyfriend is that right? i know its not and i dont want to ruin my wonderful relationship with my boyfriend and bestfriend so i decided to keep my feelings aside so that no one will get hurt