someone told me that i should move on, that i should give up waiting for the one that got away. he told me that there are so many guys out there. If that is true then why can't i feel it? If there are so many guys out there why can't they find me?? typing this statement makes me feel that i am miserable which i don't want to feel...ever!
I don't want to give-up just yet. I'm not a quitter, I'm a fighter. But why can't we end up being together? may be destiny hinders it. As much as I want to quit, some thing is telling me not to.
Every passing day, i always find myself daydreaming. daydreaming the day that i will see him outside AB bldg. waiting, just to see me. But i guess it will just stay as a dream and never a reality.
I love him, knowing that he might not feel the same way as i do. However, I'm still hoping...hoping for that day that he will love me back. I'm still holding on. Holding on to the possibility that he might love me too.
I want to keep my promise. The promise to wait for him even if it takes a lifetime. I will never give up.
If destiny hinders, i will still fight back because I'm hoping to see him again and by that time, he will finally love me.
I LOVE YOU BEFORE AND I WILL NEVER STOP LOVING YOU TILL THE END OF TIME...and thats a promise
Thursday, February 14, 2008
Friday, January 4, 2008
The ONE that got away part two
i played the song "How did you know" by gary v. while writing this possible ending of the story(the ONE that got away) after all, i was playing it while i wrote that blog entry of mine. Sounds cheesy though but i cant help it. By playing the said song, i am hoping that my emotions while writing that entry would come back. But it didn't, its now different.
Yes,he came back. he came back through a text message asking me how im doing. A friend of mine gave my number to him (thank you girl!!). And from then on, we communicated.
I asked him to go to our PASKUHAN(UST's christmas party). He didnt came. May be he is too drunk. Then he ask me to go to their ARRIBA Fest,,,i said no.
Although he came back, i am not quite sure what i am feeling about it. I was fooled so many times by guys that is the reason why i am doubtful of his feelings for me. I want to believe him, i really do but still my brain is telling not to give in again. may be he is plain trippin' and if i believe him, i might end up falling again and i might not stand again.
i am not afraid of love, i am afraid of its consequences for i know i will be hurt again. can you blame me if i hide under my mask?i blame my heart though,,
i dont want to fall but i dont want to be alone,,i really hope that he will be the ONE who will change my views regarding that matter,,i wish he will give the SIgn i asked,,if he will give it then i will know that he really is my ONE.
Yes,he came back. he came back through a text message asking me how im doing. A friend of mine gave my number to him (thank you girl!!). And from then on, we communicated.
I asked him to go to our PASKUHAN(UST's christmas party). He didnt came. May be he is too drunk. Then he ask me to go to their ARRIBA Fest,,,i said no.
Although he came back, i am not quite sure what i am feeling about it. I was fooled so many times by guys that is the reason why i am doubtful of his feelings for me. I want to believe him, i really do but still my brain is telling not to give in again. may be he is plain trippin' and if i believe him, i might end up falling again and i might not stand again.
i am not afraid of love, i am afraid of its consequences for i know i will be hurt again. can you blame me if i hide under my mask?i blame my heart though,,
i dont want to fall but i dont want to be alone,,i really hope that he will be the ONE who will change my views regarding that matter,,i wish he will give the SIgn i asked,,if he will give it then i will know that he really is my ONE.
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