fooled again

mahirap pa lang mapag tripan. Iyong tipong umaasa kang magbabago sya tapos makakatanggap ka na lang ng text message na may girlfriend na sya. What's up with that?sana pinagtripan ka na lang din sya para walang nawala sa akin. I just wish I could find the guy who will change my mind about my perception regarding guys. I dont want to be fooled again. I feel like a fool, believing his sugar coated lies. Sana hindi na lang nya sinabi,but then, mukhang tanga pa rin ako nun. Whats better?the fact that you're so naive in whats happening or the fact that you know that you are being fooled once more? I think both of them are painfull, i can't even bare one. I don't know why he told me. May be he is a sadist and i am a masochist for letting him fool me and experience the pain once more...

NOW PLAYING: Parting time

will i regret it?

remember my previous post about a guy that got away?argh!! i think he is reading my posts right now,,will i regret giving him my weblink??if he only knew that he is the ONE,,the ONe..haiz,,

aahhh!!!..nosebleed!!

one reader of my blog reacted on one of my posts. I guess he was greatly affected by my emotions that he taught he was the guy i'm telling about in that particular blog. He is one of my close friends...if you are reading this blog,,i just want to say its not all bout you...you taught wrong so stop reacting in english you're making my head hurt and you are making my nose bleed....i can't understand what you're saying kasi e..

where's my cellphone!!!

I was in a jeepney(a kind of land transportation in the Philippines) this morning when I lost my phone. I'm still in the state of shock right now because it's my first time to be mob. Not actually mob but to lost something so valuable to me is a first for me. I don't know who to blame...Should I blame my shitmate in the said jeepney or me? or maybe dave is right,,maybe i should blame poverty but it's not just right...to be unjust is the nature of all being but i don't agree..i think to be just should be the nature of all human beings!! i hate poverty!! I hate unjust people...in short I HATE INJUSTICE!! specially when it happens to me or to anyone i know

the ONE that got away

I was in first year highschool when i met him. I remember it vividly. He came in to my life without me realizing it. He said he loved me back then, I loved him just now. He even cried for me because he knew I was with the wrong guy. I cried before because he was with the wrong girl. I've fallen in love with him but it was just too late, we already parted ways.

Everyday I smile, taking aside my lost. But deep inside this wounded heart of mine, he is THE ONE THAT GOT AWAY. I still continue my life without him, thinking there's a guy out there for me. May be it wasn't him. For I will deeply regret it. I ruined my chance...our only chance for something that would have been great. And now I'm giving our chance to someone else.

The heart has its reasons which reasons does not know. I blame thy heart for thy heart did not explain the reasons why I should fight for my feelings. The reason I must know.

I've finally found someone but I let that someone go. This is one of my foolish mistakes that I made and still making. May be I was not made to love so dearly because by doing so, I've hurt most of the people who dearly love me.

I'm still filling this empty space in my heart that you left. I still remember you at times. At times I still remember thee, when I hear the song. The song at the time he cried oh so deeply. I never realized how much he loved me. I wish I could love him too at that exact moment. But sadly I can't. I wish I did though. I may not end up thinking so many what if's right now. If only I knew.

I don't know how to end this story right now for I don't want to end it just yet. i may disappoint whoever will read this for it does not have a happy ending. I wish I could write a happy ending for this one but I can't. I will just give myself false hopes. I'm still happy though, for without him, I will never believe in destiny. We may be destined not to end up with each other. But how I truly wish that in our next life, we will finally end up with each others arms.

No words can truly explain how much I loved him...

whatta?!

dear someone,

hi!,,if you're reading(and i bet you do),,then gud 4 both of us,,anyways,enough with the segways..do you know that i already loved you before we reach college??i was just to afraid to admit it to you and to myself...(shocks,,with matching senti music pa while typing this blog..)are you surprise?iwas too damn afraid because i thought the guy that im with is the ONE..but now i know,,he's not the ONE,,why you may ask? i did loved him..no doubt about that he also did,,i felt it..but we just can't understand each other and there are so many conflict between him and i. i have to end it..im not happy with him anymore..im not happy with who i am anymore..i found that happiness with you,,you alone...i just wish that this thing between us will work..

fallen_angel

somewhere,out there

haiz,,as i scan my pics in my computer i realize that i miz mah best seatmate and best guy bud nikko. i miz the days that we cram together during exams,how we try to cheat(shhh!!quiet lhan!) during hard exams. he memorized the constants and i memorize the formulas and we help each other during exams,seatworks and assignment.

i also miz the time that he will lend me his collection of series of unfortunate events book. together we sympatize with the baudelier orphans.
i also remember the time that we will wait for each other whenever we have a duty on fridays(he with his CAT and me with my CS).

I also remember the time when we always gossip with our seatmates. We also conive in bad things like complain how our classmate told as the wrong formula on the convertion of fahrenheight to celsius which affected our score.(i wont tell who he is!tga FEU)
i never thought that we will part ways cause we made a promise to stay connected somehow. but i think we broke our promise.

if ur outder nikko,,and reading this,, tek k nmn!!daya m e!!

shity-shity bang bang

wata layp!!! my mom is bugging me again!!! that's why i dont want 2 work with her she's just bossy and inconsiderate!!she always telling me to fix up things that she messed up and she will tell me that it's not her who messed it up!!damn!! and when im just telling her that she messed it up she's gonna react..she thinks she's so perfect and all!!!but in fact she's not!!i really hate it when it happens

why o why?!

why o why cant i be free??be free to express myself?coz whenever i try to express my thoughts,, my mom is always there to disturb my flow of creative juices and my emotions as well..(thanks a lot)..why do they always do that??O mean when she ask questions and i try to answer them she will say that i am answering back,,nyahaha..wadalayp!!i hate it when that happens and mind you..it always happen to me..why me?? i'm trying my best to please her but still it's not enough im always bobo or stupid in her way of thinking. i hope she doesn't read this coz if she does im in BIG BIG TROUBLE again..

confusion??

confusion is the word for the day or maybe the word for the month,,im so confused,,why??because i think i have feelings for my bestfreind and i still have a boyfriend is that right? i know its not and i dont want to ruin my wonderful relationship with my boyfriend and bestfriend so i decided to keep my feelings aside so that no one will get hurt